I was angry.  I had been angry since the night before.  The incident had even made me cry, which upset my kids, which made me more angry.  And then after the anger, I was just exhausted.  So much so that when I woke up I thought about skipping my workout. “Just this once.  I’ve had such a hard night.” I thought to myself.  Almost immediately I knew that if I didn’t go for my run/walk and let this morning slide, that I would find it difficult to get going next time…and next thing you know it would turn into another 6-7 months of nothing.

So I got up and headed out.  As I made my walk the thoughts of what had made me angry kept playing themselves over and over in my mind.  By the time I became aware of my surroundings I was sweating and almost in front of the park.  My newspaper friend greeted me, smiling.  This made me smile too…and just like that I seemed to have literally sweated my anger away.

I made my loop around the park again running, none stop.  It seemed easier this time.  Killer Hill 1 is still a challenge for me, but not as much as when I first started.

I felt really amazing by the time I ran up Killer Hill 2, also seemed easier.

Here’s the skinny: I can’t avoid negativity in my life, and as much as I try to maintain a positive outlook, there will be occasions from time to time when negativity will get in the way.  My working out I do for me, and I can’t let anything, especially stupid negative crap, ever stop me from taking care of me.  Cause then the bad guys win.  It is especially when it envelopes you, the crappy parts of life, that you need to force yourself away from it’s hold and do something for you, even if at first you don’t feel like it.  Pursuing to be positive is not as hard as some people may think.

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